When plans don’t work out

Over the past 18 months, I’ve poured my heart and soul into creating a safe space for women to explore a higher version of themselves. It’s been the realest of reals building Soul Confidence.

In that time I’ve managed to create 70+ video lessons and worksheets on everything from how to let go of limiting beliefs to how to lean into success without feeling shame. I’ve hosted 40+ community calls that were the perfect mixture of laughter, celebration, and growing pains. I’ve even put on a couple of live events to celebrate the incredible women who choose to show up day-in and day-out to do the work to grow regardless of the tantrum their brain is throwing.

And yet, even with all that, I know deep in my heart that it’s time to move on.

On June 30th, Soul Confidence will be shutting down indefinitely.

If you’re wondering how I’m feeling about it — right now, I’m mixed. Stuck somewhere between relief and fear. Gratitude and sadness. Disappointment and immense pride. I’m equal parts pumped and scared shitless for the next phase. I don’t know what it’s going to look like yet, and I’m doing my damn best to be ok with that.

I’m also doing my damn best to be gentle with myself.
To not get caught up in the you’re a failure self-talk mixtape.
To remember that I went for it and even if it didn’t end up the way I envisioned, I am better for it.

I am the woman I am today because I believed in the possibility of Soul Confidence.

I believed it could make a difference.
I believed it could bring badass women from across the globe together to love and support each other.
I believed it could help someone actually become the person they want to be.

Soul Confidence did all that and more.

To all the women who made up the community that is Soul Confidence, thank you. You have been one of my greatest lights. I can’t wait to see how you continue to evolve and grow.

To all my people who supported me through this endeavor, thank you. I appreciate the love, support, and guidance throughout this entire adventure — especially in the times when I was feeling discouraged and lost. I am so grateful you’re in my life.

And finally, to myself, thank you. Thank you for believing in me. Thank you for your unwavering optimism. Thank you for knowing when it is time to go. I so appreciate you.

Soul Confidence didn’t turn out the way I planned, and the beauty of that is I now get to figure out why.

Wherever you’re at in your day, I want to leave you with this Caroline Myss quote I found in A Path Made Clear by Oprah today.

To the people who are in despair, I would say to them, I need you to be fully present and appreciate all that is in your life right now. I would tell them, you had your life focused on something that didn’t belong to you, and a path that didn’t belong to you. You locked in on something that did not belong to you. Someone that didn’t belong to you. You didn’t let go of a yesterday that didn’t belong to you. You hung onto a rage that didn’t belong to you and you wouldn’t let it go. You lost track of being here, or something happened to you, and you said, “It shouldn’t have happened to me,” and you never got over it. I promise you that happened when you finally said, “It’s not my life. I don’t know how I lost my purpose.” You did not lose your purpose. What you lost was the sense that you thought certain things shouldn’t happen to you and they did. As if you were excluded from the ordinary everyday things of life and you can’t get over it.”

To staying on the path we’re meant for,