Isn’t it crazy how life can feel so confusing and weird and like such a struggle but then the next moment everything is clear?
I’ve been in this phase of my life where I’ve been asking myself, “What do I really want?” and for the first time, in a long time, my answer is coming back “I don’t know.”
This has been new and somewhat alarming to me.
That is until I do things like fall into laughing fits with my husband, squeeze my friends super tight, or FaceTime my sister only to have my niece hijack the phone and bring it right up close to her sweet cheeks. (Proof Below)
I am very intentional with my life.
I’m intentional about who I spend time with, what I focus my energy on, and how I show up day to day and I think part of the reason I’m struggling to find an answer to this question is that I already have everything I really want.
I forgot that wanting isn’t reserved for the things I don’t have.
I can want something AND already have it.
I really want kind, supportive, deep-rooted, fulfilling relationships in my life AND I have it.
I really want to make a difference and impact lives in the work that I do AND I have it.
I really want to look around me every day and be in awe of my own life AND I have it.
Answering “I don’t know” to “What do I really want?” isn’t totally true — I do know, and I already have it.
Is there anything in your life you really want that you already have?
When you think about what you really want, do you already have it?
I’m not saying don’t desire, or reach, or strive.
What I am saying is lean into your blessings — the ones you want and that you already have.